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OMG. SAY HELLO AGAIN.

2009-09-28T19:59:00.002+08:00

sexy heels mans.

HELLO.

to be honest. i completely forgotten i had a blog. Rather funny. How fast time passed and it's already EOY. EXAMS. hectic schedule i'm having this two weeks. praying really hard to get Bs. Taking time off, to blog, then it's studying again, man. my life is so tight. which i really like, it can get really fun and annoying at the same time. HEEs. Life has beeen really awesome, awesome people around me, my leaders, friends and peeepops. i'm hulaboolooing. i have a plan after the exams! i'm gonna go meet people all over Singapore. Gonna have some fun and fellowship. until we meet again on 15Oct. TADTAD!

Spiritual warfare at 4am?!

2009-08-10T16:13:00.001+08:00

HELLLOSSS.
havent been posting like nuts. blogger is like mega messed up. so finally today ignored all that crap and decided to blog. it's been crazzy la. things are like awesome. and crazzzy. school is one thing, been studying like nuts till 4am plus-ish in the morning. and like my heads spinnns and today is a holiday but i have to stay home and finish up work, study for test. i kinda like this though. hahas. God has been so good mans, He's like the man, i wanna marry Him, hahas. i need a man, hahas. so desperate. i think life has been rather matured for me now. hahas. i feel all old and cranky grumpy. need to find the old jo, when she gets all hyped and high no matters what happens. hahas. i'm so excited for the next rest of the year, ProjD is like really exciting, ready for the next challenge(: Cell is awesome. but we can be better. things makes me wanna poke eyes but i cant do that. hahas. mans, this week. i kinda feel the flow of spiritual warfare for me, last night was the bomb. i went to bed at 4.30 and like try to sleep but nothing seems to work and i was screaming in my dreams, like i was half into my dream + reality. it was crazy. worst night of sleep. and today i had to continue my work and my head is spinning, gotta pray mans. that's all la... gotta get a nice hot bath and maybe rest alittlle before i start studying for chemistry mans...

loves, Jo

Time to blog.

2009-07-29T19:37:00.001+08:00

HELLOS READERS.
i'm back because this is like a well where i puke in. rather than keeping it in my body. i would rather type and be happy. hahas. This week have been such awesome time, it's been a long long time ever i talked. today i learnt about slacking, i believe there's no such thing as slacking period. who says christians have rights to slack. if there is. Jesus would have slack and didnt died for us. you get the jes ? i'm praying for greater things mans. gonna finish up homework. and still craving for good food. i need someone to follow me on a food spree. hahas. i love you all (:!

Feeling all lovely dope-py.

2009-07-20T21:28:00.001+08:00

hello .
if anyone would realized, maybe not., hahas. im feeling extremely happy and i want to hear "Little Joanna " by Mcfly on my birrthhhday, would someone who loved me sing it. i would love you for it ! school has been crazy mans, work after work but i would not leave God in a corner mans, always find time to spend with Him, week has just started, i pray i wont crack.(:

the 100th post.

2009-07-16T18:13:00.002+08:00

hellos. if there's Gopers reading this or christians, that's good. today my heart cries out. for cell, when i see a girl who lost her way to bgr to spoiled family relations, i just wanna breakdown, because what she was searching was just someone to be there for her and she was unknowly searching for God's love. now i wanna make it up and make things right. i believe everyone yearns for love, and God is love. but love is not God.today do smth to smth or smbody before it's too late, but it's never too late to be late. i love you! Jo.

This is just anorther post Jo has posted.

2009-07-09T19:04:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
decided to blog after like many years of hesitating, life has been pretty much doing work, doing maths, almost all my life, i really want to step up my game, if it takes me to step out of my comfort zone, so be it, since i alrd kinda seem to step out alrd. so excited about my life, what's gonna happen every minute, and who's gonna cross my path., it's fun, i believe my life as a christian is way more fun and excited than a life of a normal person, maybe, or maybe not. some normal people may not be the same as me, same beliefs, they may be rich, but in a sense, they are poor in relationships with people. they may seem happy with material wealth, but instead, they are empty with dusts and dirt. they may seem beautiful as the society calls them, but they feel fake, when i took this path to walk this race, i never look back since 2007. never thought of leaving, because i have my dreams, vision and purpose. and A passion thats keeps burning inside of me, not saying that it wont burn out but it does, sometimes when i am so exhausted. im though, because of maths hwk. ! hahs. but now, im so excited where our FERRARI is heading, i never want to get off, because we are so glam. hahs. GLAMOROUS. awesome .there's one thing that keeps stopping me from going into greater things mans, fear. like i really want to start a school cell but theres problem, like the ones that are in it are really young, <2mths old. as in young christians, and their so called group leader is worried, and i cant seem to get the purpose of a school cell. i am not sure if i should meet this guy, so we can talk. argghh, so frustrated mans. someone pls call me asap. talk to me! i love you for it!

4th JULY.2009 and MORE TO COME.

2009-07-06T09:20:00.002+08:00

HELLOS YOU!
4th july was the best service yet. no hiccupps, God was there, the people are rising up,,. leaders are excited and not hesitating, GOING FORTH. expecting and praying thru the week was awesome, service tells it all, issacong preached good, the people responsed, im doubly excited for the next one to come . i know the secret(: .

NO COMPLAINS ANYMORE!!

2009-07-01T19:01:00.002+08:00

HELLOS ,
i'm MEGA MEGA excited for the month of July and what's to come for the rest of the years and decades . This sat is gonna be crazy, so exciting, i dont quite know what to say until it comes, but i know something is cooking and stirring, hearts are getting hungry and hungrier, they cant wait, they will run, they will praise Him. Come if you can. !

Check out this www.Generationofpromise.blogspot.com for more info!

. this is what im gonna say.

2009-06-26T22:25:00.004+08:00

hellos.
if you seen this, good. you are alive. school's starting, life is changing, it always does. change is the only constant. let's see where next shall brings me, i really want to be at a new place, am i ready am i there alrd. i dont care, if im making sense, just wanna type. i want to do so much things, things i have in my head, things that are gonna come my way. i just felt i lost the june hols. i totally ruined it. i didnt have it, i just let it pass me by. i rotted, i died. now what. just so annoyed with myself. could have done so much with those time, and God has been great awesome. Praise Him that i managed to finished all my hols work, He's awesome. i wanna marrry Him. i need a man. or a best friend. i need someone who is on the same level or one level higher than me . its just so awesome living my life but sometimes you just wanna sigh together rather than alone. Lord, pls send him here now. i dont wanna to wait anymore. or can i have a pet. a pet that doesnt need my care but to hear me talk. im gonna add some colour into my words. arghghhhhh. i love doing what i do,, why does it gets so hard to walk. maybe because i walk alone. i need a holiday. i should hangout with myself. come on, Jo . lets go hang out and scream like i havent scream in a long while and do things that i can only do alone.

aint no sunshine,
when's she's gone.
it's not warm when's she's gone.
aint no sunshine
when she's gone,

love, Jo.

i need to work + rest too la.

2009-06-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

hellos. awesome people.
today i declared, i havent yet to finished my homework, yes and amen to that. that's a mountain i cant move but i serve a God who moves mountain, amen! hahas. just randomly wanna add up the atmosphere. today prayer was good, i dont know if anyone understood what i shared. i'm mega feeling better. and. i need to stay home tmr and stay away from my bed so i wont FALL ASLEEP. gotta work smart. and i know YOU LOVE ME (:

love much still, Jo

sometimes you just have to sit and think to really know it all.

2009-06-22T21:26:00.002+08:00

hellos(:
today was really mind-breaking, cause i'm sick, really sick, cough and slight fever. i know He will strengthen me, when i'm weak, He is strong, today was tough, being all sick and weak but it was good, cause i managed to take a break from everything and just think, it was good, and had dinner with some awesome people, and shaunster shared good, i didnt had THAT confidence to tell him my purpose in life, i think fear is what stops potential people from unleashing it, and lazyness is really what that cause your life to be meaningless, when you feel you dont want to do something , really not because of tiredness, it's because you lost that purpose, your life becomes meaningless, i have been in spiritual field, and i didnt know, gotta start working SMART. dust off my bible. dig for my hwk and my phone to encourage my friends. people who are with me(: today was great but i know there will be something greater and better in stored for me(: amen.

i'm still hanging, still excited. but needs alittle much more FIRE.

2009-06-21T22:22:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
im speechlesss. i dont quite know why,. somehow i want to speak, somehow theres something holding me back. mans. i'm excited, even with a pimple on my face. hahas. im kinda feeling all lazy and everything, not like last year where i can chiong my hwk, but now it's like HOD OUTING! hees. awesomefun. but im gonna do some work, hopefully before i leave home, yes i can, (: arrrghhh, i have to freaking go school tmr, why . i havent complete my hwk, why. arrrghhh. GAMESDAY was fun, evven though it was messy, hahas, PARENTS DAY was awesome, i had to freaking sit at the same table as shaun, hahas kidding(: you're awesome. then , it's off to tmr, boy, i hate school at this point of time, and i really wanna skip it, mans. arghhhhhh,..

love much stilll, Jo

you're the reason why i can stand on mountains

2009-06-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

HELLO readers.
today was awesome, ok. everyday is awesome. this whole week has been unexpected, it wasnt planned, hahas. i was SUPPOSEDLY to stay home and do homework but then theres singing prac, which kinda took almost half the week and a meeting tmr (: but it's cool, praise God my mum aint complaining, im trying to be home for dinner, so at least she sees me, hees. i'm so hoping for extension of 2weeks of holidays. mans, havent even completed half of my homework, i cant go back to school!! hees. today was great. i love the chalet part where i go meet all my classmates and exclassmates, and i love the people, some are like the awesome people,. hahas. shamus, he's like the little boy , he very sweet, bought me lolipop. hahas, but his life is not that nice, so he comes to me and talk about girls, (: he's awesome, then i have the psp freaks, syfiq is like some skinny mud, hahas. he taught me how to play soccer on psp, which i suck in, and kept screaming the whole time, hahas, fun. im so tired, gotta win some eye bags back, so im gonna tune in (:

annoyed but yet gotta keep firm,

2009-06-16T12:08:00.002+08:00

hey.
feeling so annoyed, just cleaned my room which took me like more or less 45mins, mans, so tired, arrrrghhhh, thought of blogging after so long, hahas, as much as i wanna talk, i got work to do, but life or rather me has changed alot ever since church camp, i'm so ready to go, go after God, mans. liike i'm so ready for ascension but my body is not, cause i'm not physically ready, hahs, dillemma mans, dilemma, so confused, i been thinking so much i hardly sleep, mans, i dont want eyebags, hahas. who wants, man, feeling so bimbo. oh no, complaining too much. okok, let's get everything right, let me share with YOU. yes YOU. stop it. (: my vision, the vision i got during church camp. i saw a picture of a red car, looks like a ferrari, hahas, then it was positioned on a long road, the road had like curves, up and down, and it was straight, and the weather was amazingly nice, and as i stayed and observe the picture, the voice said, Gop is like that red ferrari., everyone is a part of that car, and only 20-30 parts of the car caught the fire the vision and wants to move, wants to go and run after it, but the other parts didnt , and thus, the whole car cant move, cant move into greater things and what God has planned for it, if our attitude is right and we really want to move, lets spread the fire, lets catch the vision and run together, we have a long road to go, but we know that we are on the right track because the weather is good, everything is going smooth, i believe that theres not much time to waste, lets get fired up and run! (: so excited. hahsas,

bye me loves!

PASTORJOHNATHAN

2009-06-13T23:12:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
awesome service ttoday, i think theres not much to talk because you can see it, it's all happening, so obvious, hahas, HOD. we have outing okays! for once we go antichurch, we dont talk about church and services, and dont complain about our ministry, we go have fun, hahas, i plan, so give me ideas(: we go on the wednesday, 24thjune, okays? then we can we can watch movie or shop, hahas, okays,. i think somehow i disappointed people, and i believe God too but yet He still loved me, Jesus too, thanks Gaius, hahas, arrgrghhh.. i'm feelin grumpy and jumpy, i wanna jump around the place like noone would comment or judge me, i am so like that la, arrrgghhhh,maybe if i sleep it will be gone, okays, i'm gonna try that, GOODNIGHTS!!

who will go?
me: here i am , choose me choose me, i will go!!

WOW. you can say it again.

2009-06-12T16:17:00.005+08:00

hello readers!
back from awana genting and fired up. this church camp was amazing, God was there, i mean it was like soaking in His presence and i never want to leave but gotta follow where He goes because God doesnt stagnate. He moves on and so must we. hahas., it was indeed one of the most spiritually and physically church camp. nothing like the others i been to. day 1 and 2 morning service was Ps.yang and yes, he is awesome, amazing speaker and had a word for me, which was good, hahas. then day 2 night service and day 3 morning service was Ps.michael, he is funny, love him, hahas, his wife was awesome too., the services was good, and cell was a new experience mans, i believe something is stirring up. for me, compared to last year, church camp was so spiritually and emotionally tired and intense,. my room was the most intense in a sense, in between the hours i had to go away and take a break, all the way, mans. hahas, my room was with angel and fion, yeah, they are awesome people but it can get real messy at times, not so good, but it's all settled and still working on it, gotta learn how to have patience and love, mans, tough, i'm like loving what i'm doing but so not sure if this is what God wants me to do and if it's the right thing anot. so gonna give it my best and yeah, i know i'm not ready yet.

Lord, i know i know you have something installed for me
and i'm gonna prepare myself while you prepare me too
for what's to come, iloveyou, Amen!

i'm BACK with the FIRE BURNING in me(:

2009-06-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
mans, am i tired, but i'm gonna cut things short and blog tmr, but be expected for the bomb to land on you. church camp was so much better than sentosa(:

hmm, so many yet so little.

2009-06-03T21:05:00.002+08:00

hellos readers!
i'm feeling all excited , haha, yeah right. i just came back from cell stayover, which was a new mega experience, when i was immature, i would get high and hyper and don't care about the people around me , it's just me and me and still me, but ytd was kinda awesome, i could see the difference la, i tried to be less thinking of only me, and start thinking about repsonsiblilty and people la, kinda cool. hhaas. mans, the bible study/worship time was great, i thought we could go further, hahas, like the presence. then we had movies and there was me and gracek studying, we slept in the santuary, mega cold ok. hahas. but fun. i'm still tired though, my day was like booom boom. i came home, get ready for school, bathe and left home, came home, watch tv and fall asleep, so i missed prayer, but i intended to, gotta BALANCE my time at home and church. tmr gonna be exciting , i'm doing total fast, and i have school. mans, and mike connell on sat. ahhh!!! and saturday our cell gonna wear something special, hahas, i think kristie tell people le lor. so excited !!! gonna get some rest. (:

Lord, take control.
pls help me when i'm fasting!!

i wanna PREACH!

2009-06-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i want to speak, preach, whatever you call that. i gotta make some noise, i am made to stand in the gap of the worship team in heaven, so we gotta make some noise. i am so amazed by Joel Osteen's sermon, living without crutches. and i wanna share it mans! it really impacted me alot. he shared about the story in Judges 7, where Gideon is about to take his men to fight a battle, he had about 30k men and God said it was too much and asked those who were afraid to fight, to leave and made some final changes, and 300men were left to fight the battle against 10k and they fought. what do we see here, it's not about the number of men we have to fight the battle,it's about the RIGHT ones, are you the right one ? are you afraid? maybe you should start asking this qn. i'm asking myself, whether i was ready to even give my life, i wouldnt be afraid to admit that i fear of death, fear what would happen to my family and friends, i guess i got work to do. hahas. today my day was abit unfulfilling, except i was home with mum, her birthday, hahs. gonna take a deep breath and face the music.

Lord. i love you for the love you showered upon me
and i thank you for forgiving me still and i have faith in you
that whatever is going that is negative, you have control.

me and me, and me still.

2009-05-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i'm not so sure what to blog about or what. cause life is so fast, constantly moving like no one else business, and the holidays are here, wow., so excited for church camp, gonna have breakthru, i am excited, expected, wow. hmm, today i spend like the whole afternoon with me cell, it was cool, alittle , not sure what to say, sometimes we cant click, yeah, understandable. hahas. cooldos, nothing much except i was with deb almost all the time and we went to this condo where all i mean ALL rich people live there, take a walk in the carpark and you would never wanna leave, their cars are like what? bmw{s} , ferraris, porshe,lambo. love it. love it. hahas. i saw my dream car!! the only, lime green lambo. love it. hahas. cooldos, gotta go back to school tmr, darn, ahh, i never knew things would move so quicky, my qn pop out, and i'm gonna pray, as much as i wanna be, but i dont think i got what it takes to be one. time, and maturity, me, me, me. hees.

so do you think i got what it takes ? God.

shoes are really confusing.

2009-05-29T19:43:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.

lalalalalas. today was awesome, after so long, i blogged. hahas. today was real interesting, school was cool and everything, gotta really buck up for my subjects, someone TUTOR me, hahas. and then i watch night at the museum 2 with julene, took a chance to bond and everything, hopefully she comes tmr, hahas. was real fun, we snack and everything, hmm, then i went home, which was interesting, i stand outside and awaits the bus that came first. as usual, i took 293 and happened it was abit full and 28 came too, so i missed 28 which was not full, get it? and i went, "man, i'm such a fool, i hate myself" hahas, then another empty 293 came!! i went "man, i love God." He's just so amazing, hahas, i'm hoping to get what i have been desiring for 3years. a Macbook Pro. it seems impossible, but it turn from a want to a need. really gotta have it. mans. and the holidays has started ! gotta lose some fats, anyone gym? (:

one step closer. less your head would be clear

2009-05-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i'm not sure if there is anyone seeing this, but who cares. hahas. today was pretty much a very dramatic day for me. i had a maths trial which was burning me under the hot sun , not funny. then i had teachers staring at me, i hate when that happens. okay. frankly i feel so much part of the world today, i felt like a b****. cause i was so indulged with the world, i forget to keep my mind calm and head clear. mans. Praise God, that i serve a God, that forgives, i have a Father who loves me unconditionally everyday no matter what kind of person i turn out to be,. sometimes, when you try to be the world to know the world, you kinda get influenced by the world unknownly , but if you keep focus, you would realized, then snap out of it. no time to waste. mans . praise God, i snap out of it quick. today i was at the bus stop and i saw this mother and son, and the mother demands from the child, the toy he was holding on, the mother wanted to keep it with her, safe. but the child said no which kinda brought the mother to a "dont talk to me" kind of attitude, and i was like... this child only wants to show you that he is responsible enough and when he tries to make you happy and wants to speak to you, you ignored him and look at the dissappointed look on his look, even i whom is nobody to you, feels hurt. but i have a Father, an awesome Father, the best one anyone can find. (: one who wouldnt ignore me when i disobey him, one who will make me smile when i cry and not the other way round, one who loves me so much that He gave his son. i just thank God so much for who i am today and where have i come from. i kinda know what i might be doing for God , i think, family matters,. children, mothers. i really have a heart for them, haha,. cooldos, gotta get going. bye loves.

i guess it's getting much better and more interesting!

2009-05-24T21:35:00.002+08:00

hey readers.

i am mega happy and a slight unhappy in me, hahas. God is good all the time and all the time He is good, although that's alittle like too much but it's the truth. hahas. awesome . Saturday was awesome. i mean Grace started off with like a altarcall atmosphere, bam , God was there, the people's heart had to be right. it was rather like looking back at this race i'm running to me and who's still there with you or people whom you dislike but still running with you and makes you smile when you need to be smilling, and knowing that the decision i made to the huge discision He made to bid Jesus on us. wow. i knew i wouldnt regret it and i feel real sorry for those who lost sight of the real focus, you cant blame anyone anything that you lost sight of it. it's you. you are the decision maker, it just hurts me alot to know i lost people during this race and people whom i love alot and expected them to be the one encouraging me to carry on in this race because they always have done it, but it seems so clear i'm now alone, but i still have a good friend, Jesus, He just awesome, He is the best person i want to have by my side forever. yeah, so i'm growing stronger in this race, i have to keep up with the leader. (: like today pastor jonathan preached , and he said it's a tragic thing to see people turn away from their faith and belief when they had tasted the goodness of God before, i mean that it's really blinded alrd. hmmm, people get influenced by the world, as they grow older, get more in touch with the latest gossip, all the upper east side of life, they think by getting a house and loads of Guccis and Pradas will gain them happiness, mans, so blinded. i just cant get over it. BUT along the race, we pick up new passions, people who are fired up for Him ,ready to serve and fight the battle. these people , we cannot let those who left us affect our relationships with the new ones, we gotta move on with life, Listen to what God says.

No matter how tired i may be, so how much i loathe to do what i'm doing because i felt i was doing much more than others, i always remember, what Jesus did on the cross was way worst compared to what i am doing and me running in this race, i have seen lives getting transformed, changed and never be the same, it brings joy to my heart, and that's all i need, as long as God is pleased, and i love doing things for the people whom i love. that's DNA,love.

wow, today is gonna be a long one, not sure why i'm crapping alot, yeah. today was a great day, ASHOK came, you heard his name. A-S-H-O-K. hahas. he is just so awesome. we slacked in the youth room with our mouths shut together, i mean hopefully by me just sitting there with him will not make him feel leftout. i was real tired, i didnt wanna talk or anything, we simply sat there, hahas. it was funny. yeah. hopefully he comes next week!! missed him alot. hahas. today was good i believed tmr would be better, i love everyday of me life. !

i should have taken pictures.

2009-05-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i know i havent been regularly updating, just so caught up with life, my results and making new friends, or rather renewing relationships. wow. i should have bought a camera and took down moments. mans, i love my life and how He move and work in my life, i just loved it so much , i wouldnt regret the decision i made 3 years ago. has been the awesomeo decision i ever made. i just thought i am gonna talk alot aand crap. tmr, gonna be awesome, projD, Daybreak, Sermon,
so excited what Grace is gonna share. and what God is about to do in Gop. excitement !! cooldos. hmm, i always wanted to live either in rome or greece, some big city that seems so much like a small neighbourhood, walking down the street, unknown where you would reach or who would you meet or what would you see, surprises. are small rewards in life, i love them. cool huh. i just realised today that there's 2 things that will only make me angry and unfriendly. hahas. so i'm quite like good, low tempered. hahs. 1. dont ever accuse me, never ever, i cant stand being accused of something i never done. 2.Respect me.hmm, so tired. i have been feeling very uncomfortable with things that are happening, to my littles: {this might sound alittle ugly} don't act like you are cool / bimbo cause you are not, dont act like you know everything about life cause you dont, dont act like you are the best and everything is crap, i hate to say this, dont be such a b****. dont act like some rebellious star, stop thinking like the impossible can happen with only your strength, stop being so immature, i cant stand how much you have changed, i am so disappointed in you two. dont think the whole world owes you. mans, finally, i said what i have always wanted to say, i just cant understand . gonna take a long break and see what happens.

thanks, for everything.
even though life has the bitter part.

you were my sweetest part.

i think or not this might be long,

2009-05-19T19:19:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
decided to change my font for no reason, decided to crap like nuts because EXAMS are over and i am BORED. someone smack work into my face. okay, maybe i have work, just a little tough to complete that. hahas. guess i should start doing that huh.. i wanna PRAISE God at the top of my voice, bursting my lungs, because He is good all the time all the time He is good and He just amazing and awesome, i want to claim every promises He has for me, man, they are for me! specially promised , a man's word, okay. not any ordinary man, He's God. i didnt really study for my papers, i mean not as hardworking, but i did my part and send my work to His desk! now summer's coming! i wanna dance ball-dance with Him, cool huh, i might go learn. super cool. haha. my batt is almost dead. gonna chiong this one. i did pretty well for my papers, my teacher says. hopefully! hahs. i know i will. i am the head and not the tail! awesomeo! okays. i dont know what else to say but i think summer is gonna be awesome. not only the shopping and the fun but more time with God! i just love my life alot!

pls. take me to the secret place.
so i can be so much more focused.

i love blue. luminous blue, how?

2009-05-17T21:56:00.004+08:00

hellos readers.
get me a diamond ring and some love. i am refreshed. so refreshed, this time i believe. mans, i slackened and i didnt realise, when i spoke in tongues for 15 mins mans, it changed alot. ALOT lo. hahas. it's amazing, i love how He plan things, in secret . hahas. i gotta go get stuffs doing and spend alittle time with family now, so i wanna praise God for bringing me back to Him and allowin a distinction in my emaths p1 ! hahas.

He rock my world rightside up!

it's been a long time. mans.

2009-05-15T20:00:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
isnt it a long time ever since i blog lala. and someone needs to tag my blog! hahas. i have been studying like no one's business and i am so happy to say that, hahas. cause i scored a distinction for my emaths p1 ! i havent got time to blog or spend time with Him, i felt so distanced so i had to really grab time since i am left with 1 paper on tuesday, and amaths isnt too tough, just alot practise. hahas. everything has been so cool, i have been feeling dry spiritually and He gave me a new relevation of Him and i'm glad i'm good and running, i have been feeling fat too. mans. need a diet plan. ssssssoooooo needed a vacation!

i'm almost to stress to think. and type.

2009-05-12T19:33:00.002+08:00

what is wrong with the world now?
hellos readers
the most unusual and expected or unexpected situation just pop out of nowhere when i just woke up. i'm tired, indeed. i should indeed find a place, keep myself away from people,. i wanna be selfish for 1 day at least, charge myself before i do anything.
to my babe;
being here and alive, it's not your choice, Jesus's. He said He had a plan for you and it's not all the walls you are facing, but what's behind those walls, and people whom loved you; parents, friends, cell are there for you when you fall, most importantly, Jesus is, i bet He holds your hand tightly, do you feel it? i hope you do, i know you do, seek Him . i love you and He too died for you, love you much more.
i had my MT paper today, nothing much, it's crap. EMA, it's intensive, mans. rack my brains, gotta get some EARTH for now into my brains. bye.

Lord, i need you now &
more than before.

isolation, what a plan.

2009-05-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

need a holiday ASAP.
hellos readers.
gonna give a short one for today, batteries are running low, so are my spiritual ones. gotta get them charged up soon, now i mean. mans, today was totally isolation for me, i stayed home and study, the study thing didnt go as planned, i was planning to lock myself in me room with stacks of notes and books, that didnt work out, i baked., yes, i baked cookies, thought it would keep me going for the studying ,but man, it just dragged time, then i read my geography notes. some went in my mind, then it was alrd noon, went to grab something to eat but kinda got stucked into a eating-talking-crapping thing with my sis, she is so like me, like she has my genes, the way she crapped and laugh. hahas. really like me. so away with the eating, i head back to the notes, finally i finished, i started on my emaths , cause the paper's tmr!! but i didnt do much, except read and practise alittle ,gonna read and practise more later on, hopefuuly..i feeel fat. once again, mans, today is missfat day. hahas. enough of my crapping, gotta get some knowledge in this head of mine.

come holy spirit,
fall afresh on me,
fill me with your power
satisfy my needs.
only you can make me whole.

LAZYNESS TO THE EXTREME, can i have off days.

2009-05-10T16:42:00.002+08:00

hellos readers
INDEED i am mega lazy, i dont intend to blog, but i guess there's a reason why i have to, wanna talk alittle about leadership since pastor ang spoke about it today, my version will not be as chim and annoited as his, mine is alittle of my own experience, mans, was talking to milli yesterday and she was saying it's very obivious that i would be next cell leader, and i was telling her being a connectgrp leader is enough alrd, hahas, my three lovely girls, with totally different and similar personalitlty and character, and she gave me advices not things i should do and things i shouldnt, and i thought ok. hahs, then today, kawyern came for service today and i sat with her, and i was thinking, gracek aint in church , lydia has to take care of cell, i cannot say i want a day off and leave kawyern alone, i got responsiblity. hahs. it's heavy, definitately, but it's such a joy, when you find joy in heavy responsiblilty things that you are doing, you will never stop doing but you will get tired. and allow God to renew you. and like what mili said, i cannot feed these 3 girls, because then i have to feed myself too , and that's mega tiring, gotta get into a plan with God ASAP. hahs. gotta get some sleep and hopefully get some dinner and love myself less. and love people more.

you are strength,
strength like no other
strength like no other
strength like no other reaches to me.

you are the reason i live.

pissed off . i forget all about it.

2009-05-09T07:57:00.002+08:00

hellos readers
oh. i remebered. i slept during our so called date. and He scolded me alright, i mean i thought He should be comforting me all the nice words but He didnt, it kinda shows He gotta be the man sometimes, so it's not all smooth sailing all the time, He scolds, hahas, i was very angry at myself. so i didnt want to blog because i was tired, i had to do geography notes, i dont feel like doing anymore but since i started, might as well, huh.. okays, another short one, gotta learn about the EARTH.

Studies made me fatter.

2009-05-07T20:19:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
gonna give a short one today, today is nothing much, except studying with julene, melissa lee, deb, sally, it was kinda boring but yet interesting, imean we were study social studies, all the craps mans, english i need not worry, but ss, big problem mans, but gonna leave everything up to God, because He is my future, and all this studying is keeping me at home and unable to exercise, because of all the revision needed to do. i can't even take out time to go running but i'm determined to go running on saturday morning, hahas, plans often dont work out, hahas. okays, gotta hit the books again, bye,!

i'm so sorry,
i'll meet you soon, Love.

opps, i did it again.

2009-05-06T15:32:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
i did it again, it slipped my mind again, i was all ready to blog and smth distracted me and it was gone, ahh, getting real old, i wanted to share smth real good and my personal comments(: yesterday was pretty much about specs, i started wearing my mum's specs temporary, because my degree aint that bad , pretty much the same as her. at first, i felt kinda weird because i thought i was growing old and needed specs, and all the crap, but then it pondered on me when i remember smth to look into God's eyes and see the bigger picture, and i thought to me, specs was like a form of saying i am ready to take on God's specs and look for the bigger picture, be matured. and it's not trying to make us look bad, often people are so proud, so resistant about looking older, not trying to say if you look old you are matured, but people just dont want to take responsibilty, they want to be "young". and so much i been through to get where i am, i really give thanks to Him ,mans. because i took the step to wear the specs, that changed my life forever(: so you wanna be the man in the specs, or the woman behind the man in the specs. (:?

i'm speechless for what you
done is the impossible. .but
possible for you.

slipped me mind again,

2009-05-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

wanna mess up my hair.
hellos readers.
today weird for me, i dont know how would i describe that feeling, i just hope it wouldnt last. i'm tired, i admit, no motivation mans, gotta find that spark again, everything is slipping off my mind and hopefully not the impt ones, i want to shout and run and do things i like, but i just cant, i got my responsiblity and my business {people, me , family. } and all the crap life has to offer mans, i cant just go around running like a insane woman, cant wait so much for the hols, when i can sleep all day, hahas. gotta get some sleep before i K.O tmr morning at school, gonna be a long day too, hopefully i can hit start my revision, ahhh. i need help.

thanks for your hand,
i know you are holding on to me,
so i would not drift away..

fun. loads of them. tired yet i gotta do it.

2009-05-03T21:25:00.009+08:00

hellos readers.
i had loads of fun today, with kris and deb, we kinda camwhores. okays we did, we set aside our homework and did it , hahas. it was quite a long time ever we since did it, and i guess it wouldnt hurt to spend a good time, and God helped,. i managed to finished my work , fast. Praise Him mans, He's the man. my man. hahas. cool. gonna show you what we did, it was fun, hahs. i guesss all our us, the core 5,we grown up, projd, have our own connectgrp, our own life, own ministry, and all , but we make time for the core 5 time, we even planned to go overseas after O's hahs. but we cant go all at the same time, lydia and grace will have to do everything, hahas. actually they ARE doing everything, opps. hees. today was kinda good, me and lydia sat with K's mum, we NEED a plan ASSAPP. heelos? F too, need more warfare for her. hopefully everything goes well. if i have a plan. hees. i kinda tried to diet, but lazyness ah. ahhh. wanna get some sleep, people are NOTICING my BLACK and HEAVY EYEBAGS. mans. need a beauty miracle. hahas.

i wrote you a love song,
hope you love it(:

Your love is the greatest of all
" " took me from the depths of the seas
" " made me secured in your arms
" " is the only one that can me whole.
Everyday of my life, i will sing, i will sing, of your great love
that changed me from the inside out.
Lord, your love gave me everything that i need
" " healed my hurts and made me new
" " is the greatest of all.

what's with the stare; preety funny day./

2009-05-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesomeo. i did what i needed to do at home and left to meet up with deb to kinda shop, for dresses but we did accessories. hahas. then we kinda rush and my eyes caught this kinda hot guy and he caught mine. so embarrassing, i thought we wouldnt meet again but he was taking 10 and sitting beside us. hahs. funny much more. we reached church, did lalalalala. and the most impt thing just slip my mind likethat. sean asked me to get some flowers and whatever to put on the BLACK table and i didnt until after prayer, i realized. i'M SoO SORRY. i felt so bad. hahas. service was good, worship was good, the response boohoo. i mean hello, God arrived ,what's your response? ! mans, got loads of work to do. okays. everything then went preety much well. cell was HORIIBLE funny. we were talking about backside because jolin thought backslide is backside. wow. hahas. then when we were praying, and i was halfway praying, this fly came to disturb me and we broke the momentum and broke into laughter. mans,. poor mike, hahas. he so cute. today was a real good experience for me and Father. i like to call Him God, but it's Jesus. but they are the same uhhu? ok. today was real good, i mean He asked the most IMpossible thing for me to accomplish. to write Him a love song and sing it. Jo dont do sing. i cant. but i did. i think it was good, hahs. He lead me, and it's kinda my life love song to Him, hahs. awesome huh./ i love today. was hilarious. but i had struggles too/ shadnt tell you what. gotta get some sleep for tmr, and make home visits soon !

did i do good, Father?
what's my grade?

long and weird but yet fun - half filled day.

2009-05-01T20:10:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i have a sudden crave for brownies, and not just any brownies, i wanna bake them. hahas. even though i wouldnt have much time, i got work to do mans, gotta get my maths hwk done before i can do my revision. too much to complete in such short time, i have been saying that alittle too much uhh,, hees. today i was kinda forcely to study with julene and sally, luckily they came to my house because i didnt want to go anywhere, just wanted to stay home and be unglam. hahas. gotta go shop alittle. i just realised that i am in a new month and my allowance is here! yay! i didnt know my financing was that good, but i praise God even when i am freaking broke, i obeyed what He told me to do. and now i have alittle cash for shopping, hahas. i kinda wannted to run, but lazyness mans, okays, gotta do smth before i start eating . i'm putting too much of weight.

it's you that had me moving and running in this race
if you had not talked to me everyday
if you had not made my day and smile at me everyday
if you had not hold my hand tight and say"i am here, Child"
i would not have been here , soaking in your love.

sleeping days. much more calories ..

2009-04-30T20:27:00.004+08:00

hellos readers.
life has been awesome. sleeping. i kinda have been wasting my time away sleeping. homework aint done yet, revision aint moving, everything is so slow. time is so short. i gotta get my sleep yet get my work done yet ... AHH. too much for me. but thank God mans, today i got home quite early. now i'm about to start doing past year papers, hopefully i am staying at home tmr, get some work done and feel happy. hahs. i been stuffing meself with food, i cant seem to stop, like i need smth to chew, so i have been trying to drink milo, to fill my stomach. tomorrow would be a day with me in my house, with papers and books , with my specs {just to look geek} with a good cup of MILO. hahas. feeling so trapped up , have to study, i did my first paper today! yeah. more to come. wow. but Praise God that my mouth is not hurting anymore, unknownly it got healed, hahas, God really does things His ways, and His ways are higher than ours. love Him much more. i haven't really got the time to do big plans and so on, Praise God tomorrow is a holiday for me to make good use of the time given to me.

i' loving you so much more,
because you were there for me all the time
you never complain when i send my complaints to you
you never got angry with me when i disobey,.
you never said you dont love me anymore when i did things you break your heart.
how much more can you love me, i love you but i believe not as much as you love me.

dramas and cranky me.

2009-04-29T18:35:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
i have been in like millions of dramas and been cranky my whole life. dramas are sometimes childish, girls getting jealous, boys fighting over girls, small stuffs that makes a big fuss abt it. how i wished to live in a room, my dream room., i even planned out the details, thats how much i want it. i do have a house in thailand, hahs, gotta move there and have some peace mans. just woke up since all the hard tiring homework, am very cranky now, do not irritate me.. my first papers are tomorrow, so tired, i need a vacation assapp ! {as soon soon as possible pls!} randomly did it myself, hahas. gotta hit the books again soon. but i shall share a little something God blink my day, in deu 30:20, new living translation, it says that He gave us everything and one very impt thing, He gave us the choice to love and obey Him, to have the things that He has prepared for us. We had a choice, and i made that choice i lived to love.

more than dieting, planning mans.

2009-04-28T20:50:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesome. even though i got loads and tons of hwk and revision to do, gonna give a short post about today. God was really good to me, i had so much fun, daydreaming., hahas. even though today wasnt perfect, at least God didnt release His hand, when i am in a bad mood, my hands are burning, His hands were still holding on tight to mine, when i am emoing {which i seldom} and my hands are cold, His hands held on and gave me warmth. not only He stayed with me, He met my needs. (: God is awesome mans.

Spirit of God, fill my life with your presence,
hide under your shadow, dwell in your secret place,
it's you ,i'm longing for.

running slow and fast.

2009-04-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today i have tons to share. i was told that i shouldnt be online unless i have smth good to share. because exams are so near. so here goes, today was really amazing. God spoke alot to me, certain visions and theory and He kept asking me stuffs and had be stoning. cause i didnt know an answer. God was good, He grant me the time to sleep in between my emaths and amaths class and it was good although i drool on me paper. so gross, but who cares, was so exhausted, had a long day and had those days when i just soak in His prescence. went running with ot. He run fast lor. i run until tired much more, he still run, and all the crap details, we ran till pasir ris there. hahas. he mocked me. yeah, but it's cool. God is good all the time, alll the time, God is good and i am going to bathe.

today, whhat you spoke to me,
Lord. i knew wisdom to understand..

orange drinks and broken lips.

2009-04-26T20:58:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was rather .. hmm.. lost for words, cause today was abit special, different. i feel awfully fat. i know i shouldnt be feeling that way, but yeah. bit my lips like twice, inner bleeding. ahhh. today is nothing much to talk about except studying and more studying, ahhh..love much.

strong feelings huh.

2009-04-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesome. shaunster preached good but alittle too fast. hahas. everything wasnt really perfect but it went good, as planned. and this came to me, as if Jesus said it. "Listen to my voice, get away with all the plans, stop getting worried but Listen to my voice." i was thinking deep and another thing came to me is that out of how many sermons we go, we hear His voice? the sermon that was preached today didnt really much link up to this, but i think it's a good time to think, how much do we actually listen to His voice? after that was a good post party,. gave all my oreo cheesecake and people loved it (: hahas. went home with the bus 10 people. went for short supper with marvin and othat. they ate, i didnt,. fattening mans, okays that's all. today was good . i went cycling with kris which we got sunburnt , hahas. love much

i am ready to put down everything i have in planned
just to hear your VOICE.

calories and budget... hmm..

2009-04-24T20:15:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was AWESOME. in a way again. some things of course didnt went the way i wanted it to be, as usual, i believe is what God want it to be. today, school was good, God helped me with everything, Praise Him,even though i flunk my amaths paper. (: except the last part. i had a 3hr 20mins paper, i mean, i finished it in that time, so terrible and it's 6graph qns, i need help, i was screaming inside, like a mad woman. mans. then i had to go home alone and took a real long and i mean it's long time mans, to get home. when i got home, i did what i needed to do and was about to leave home to meet angel to run, but LMPO. came in. {last min parental objection} mans, i was like sitting there, thinking what to do, then everything was settled. i went to get my stuffs and start "baking". after the baking, i wanted to start on my school work, it's alot . exams. killing me . then my mum interupt and said she wants to go running or walking, she walked i ran, hahas. it's was a mum and daughter time, quite cool. mans. hahas. now i feel all smelly and good. hahas. tmr is another long day, tonight too. (:

i need to turn my
eyes to you , Lord

what's with the budget?

2009-04-23T19:54:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
today was a really long day , school was cool, luckily i didnt have any extra classes to attend. so then i went with julene and sally to tm, it was a bad decision, i thought they were just going to get some stuffs and head home, yes way was i wrong, they went to MANGO{which was me who wanted to} then we went to Singtel{Sally} then Charles and Keith{SHOES&SHADES} then Converse. then etc... it took quite awhile before we reach our supposed to be Final destination, Popular .we got our stuffs after a really long time, you know, going to a bookstore with 2 top student in your school aint a good idea, mans. they choose their stationarys and books like the way i shop for clothes sia. aiyo. then horrs, ! we go eat, they real good , they broke my budget, make me eat this eat that. and they made me stay back to study with them, so smart. we went to STARBUCKS to study, i had to buy a drink, my caramel frappe. but i was so full then, luckily we managed to finish our assignments, we had some fun parts which i do not want to elaborate. i feel mean, hahas. although i was very tired, i had a fun time with them.
yesterday i didnt have much to share, so today got alot to say, so much that's on my mind that i want to say,but i'm letting God take control.

i desire to see you everytime
to hear you speak.

short and sweet; i lost it.

2009-04-22T19:03:00.001+08:00

hellos readers.
i have absolute no idea i was supposed to blog about, serious, i am super lazy now, i want to eat and then study and do crapy stuff like bake , hahs. pardon my rudeness, bye.

Lord, would you
guide me through
this terrible forest..

handbands and great noble love.

2009-04-21T17:43:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
today was so awesome in a way. hahas. school was fast, again. hahas. i kinda think it's alittle bad for school to pass me by so fast then i wouldnt have enough time to impact people. hahas. but it's cool. today was kinda a fattening day, i kept eating, couldnt help me, my my my.. God was good still, i didnt really talked to Him much, i better! hahas. i'm into handbands now, wearing them in school and at home, keep my fringe up and my baby hair down. hahas. they are cool stuffs. i too read finished "Reduce me to love" the book by Joyce meyer. really good book. i recomend it mans, it changed alot of me, you gotta read it, if you want it, buy it or borrow it from graceke! hahas. studying have been good too so far, i having been studying much, like what can you study for chinese? finally, i am almost going nuts, sorry, my com is like something wrong with the language. okays. back to where was i, study is like freaky to me, hwk is fun, abit weirds hors. hahas. today i watch p.s i love you. i was like. ahhhhh! someone love me like that. it's so loving, i wanna marry a guy like that, i didnt like much the ending , but it was cool, hahas. okays, i guess today is enough, i just wanna encourage people who are there who are simply complaining about life, pls add some neutralizing to it, our God is a great and amazing God, He wouldnt give you chocolate if you are allergic to it? hahas. so things happening to you are things you arent allergic to(: that's an illstruation. hees. love you!

p.s i love you, Jesus

long days, painful but yet uncontrollable.

2009-04-20T18:38:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today i am a rather weak person, not character but physically, i have been having the worst of cramps, talk about ladies, ha-uhh. but other than that, God was great like really, like did He fast forward time or what? every lesson seems fast, hahas,. i bet everyone wants that. God was great, He shorten my pain! hahas. awesomeo. today i spent a really quiet time with Him, like i didnt verbally spoke to Him, but was more of the heart talk, hahas. so my room was really quiet. talk about quiet time, hahas. i feel fat too, i dont know what to do, honestly speaking, i am super lazy to run at this very moment now, unless someone drag me to gym, but i might not even move, hahs. just to describe how lazy i am. okays, life is good all the time, gotta go study for exams, i hardly study, i am trying,. hahas. i do hwk mans, not revisions, okays. enough talking for me today. (:

Lord, pls be with me
when i study(:

love is so totally spiritual warfare!!!

2009-04-19T17:34:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today i bring to you, my tough patch of life. like i mention yesterday, i been going through i really tough time, handling with myself and all the crap that are always constantly passing us by, i been handling with my moods, i had to be like Jesus and be real, i gotta love like how He love me, i just realized today, and i had a whole apology thing to the person i had a little bitterness in me of this person, and today when i was at the altar with God, i felt so much tension, like there was strongholds on me, and slowly it releases me, i could literally feel myself feeling the ground and loosen , as if Satan's hands were taken off by God's hands. i broke free, i am now loving people freely without struggling about whether my love was returned,. and loving people without bothering whether the people forgives me or not. love is really spiritual warfare. to love is to make some1's day when your day was bad, like bad hair day plus bird shit on your hair plus fall in front of a hot guy plus failing all your test and tons of homework to do. that kind of love is the greatest of all, but i'm not saying that you must have a bad day to love and make some1's day , you gotta do it all the time (: wow. today was amazing, God fought it all for me.

thank you , Lord.
for loving me unconditionally.,
and forgiving me for the things i done that
were unpleasing to you.

moody days are killing me.

2009-04-18T21:35:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
these few days have been bad and mooody for me, even though God was constantly good at all times, i get couldnt get the bitterness in me, there was this certain agony in me, annoying and i kept telling myself not to let it get to me, but it didnt really much help. i'm sorry for things i done these past days, have not been myself, trying and learning, today was emil and sarah's wedding, was so awesome. the vows and everything was so beautiful,i tear.hahas, i couldnt imgaine my wedding day. okays, today didnt really went the way i wanted but i bet it's God's way. hahas. cool, gotta keep my smile and praise Him tmr!

and Life is a road i wanna keep going
Love is a river i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
wonderful journey

i'll be there when the world stops turning
i'll be there when the storm is through
in the end just wanna to be standing at the begining
with you.

i got 5.

2009-04-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

hellos readers
i got only less than 5 mins, to blog. God's waiting. today was great. school was ok. fun. had lunch with gracek and lydia plus deb and wujie. hahs. awesome. there are funny parts which i do not wanna explain. 1 impt thing i wanna say. God is great. okay la, i was alittle naughty today, those who saw what happened,. hahas. ask me or not. i gotta go. i love you. ! and you , Daddy Lord.

kisses and huggs i would
give you but most impt my life!

(:i gotta shop!

i thank Him , man.

2009-04-15T22:27:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i praise God today man. i nearly wasnt sitting here and blogging and at home. i was in pastor tan's meeting which ended pretty much late, i took off early abit and took a cab home, i had too, i was alittle cranky and angry, but yeah, i praise God that i didnt let that get to me. yeah! today was good, no english remedial and cca! but next week gots. boring, okays. i get to go for prayer meeting and ps tan meeting! prayer meeting was okays., not phenomon,is that how you spell it ? but it was cool. i prayed and i blanked out too. hahas. ps tan was just awesome., he very cute. hahas. cools. gotta get some sleep and get ready for tmr! gotta praise His name all day long.

thank you OLord,
i don't know what wil i be,
without you..

happy MUCHＭＯＲＥ

2009-04-14T18:35:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i am happy today. but i am also very tired and cranky. i am not the way i should be. ahhh. got to study geo, but first to praise God. He did His power and everything just fall into place, He is great and awesome. i love Him, so Much More i dont know how to describe. but yeah , im sure you got me. very cranky, do not IRRITATE me. keeping my peace inside.

Lord, would you set my heart right, and
let me be at peace?

take control

2009-04-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
wow. today was awesome for like me.hahas. today i had 2 test. major. physics and emath . and i am not good in physics and that few chaps of emaths., i studied the night before but i just couldnt get anything into my head. and i prayed and let God take control. indeed He did, i felt so confident after every test. i was like woah, awesome. Praise you ,Lord. i lurbbs you.ahahs. tmr i am gonna have english test, again Lord, take control. this whole week is filled with test. gotta praise God too, i got new dresses! which are abit weird, hahas. and someone unknowly lend me a few classly dress for this sat wedding, i am less broke (:　ｈａｈａｓ．　Praise God, gotta still continue to study english., catch some sleep. Goodanights!

we were the reason, that He gave His life,
we were the reason, that He suffered and died
to a world that was lost, He gave all He could give,
to show us the reason to live.

365.

2009-04-12T18:56:00.002+08:00

hellos readers,
today's theme is like 365. everything will be about 365. hahas. very cranky today. felt a little heavy. but today was good. God was still good. as always. and i need to get studying., my tests are like tomorrow. wow. okays. should get going with my 365 then my books.
3words i want to tell 6 people and 5 reasons why.
i love you, gracek, lydia, gracey, kris, deb, angel.
a. because you all make me happy!
b.because you all love me too (right？)
c. because you guys stand by me in tough times, we are still united.
d. because you just never complain about how annoying i can be at times,
e. because we are cell !
hahas.
365 complete outfits , i will get when i grow up,
i will pay a top fashion designer to design 365 outfits specially for me and 365 pairs of shoes and accessories. awesome !!
365 days i would spend with God and praise Him.
thats all. should get going, thank you, Lord . for today. even though i am not going to describe what today is like. hahas.

the same power that conquered the grave, lives in me, lives in me
your love that rescued the earth, lives in me, lives in me.

smoke. i smell much.

2009-04-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i baked today! hahas and it was a success. FINALLY. hahas. today was a short yet angry day. i was scheduled at 10 with God, then it got pushed off to 11. and then to 2. the 11 could be done lor, but my freaaking friends was late. i was so so so angry la. i called the guy and scolding him, i was so angry they were late. but i cooled down. and was done with my baking. hahs. i got ready and head down to church. and they showed a video. instead of preaching, ahhh. okays. then it ended like 6plus. alot things happen, alll super funny and cranky. kristie ah push me here and there. it was cool and fun. we had fun spending time together ah cell and youths. hahas. today was great., it took me awhile to drag myself to church. i was tired.

Lord, take me away from the world!

baking. gotta fix it.

2009-04-09T18:59:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
praise praise God. my "good friend" didnt come today, .i dreamt it came, so i was prepared, for nothing,. hahas. today it was cool, i was half dead during P.E we had 2.4 run. i was having bad stitches, roar, i nearly failed. hahas. today i wanted to bake. but then hor, no time, so tmr hor. i will bake. hopefully hor, pass. hahas. jengjeng. i am feeling very high. today i did the one tear across into a cross thing and showed it to 4 person(: hahas. so funny. i kill alot of trees. cooldos. yay! tmr no school. cool. gonna burn abit of calories. hees. nothing much to share. but today i was like daydreaming and like i saw myself, sharing, in a group of people. i saw fion, in my connectgrp now but then i saw more. like a cell group. and then things kept coming to me., i saw a more mature and spiritually well her. i was so happy. haas. but i know thats not just daydream., it will come to pass.(:

lopidobs. cranky, am i.
but yet you still loved me.

attempt. to do loads of stuff

2009-04-08T21:42:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today is loads of attempting . it has been a long but good and fruitful day. praise God. i attempt to bake tmr. hahas. i attempt to make things better for us. but didnt helped, i attempt to say how sorry i am to you, Lord. that attempt succeeded（：today is short and sweet. i like to keep it that way. today, sean lee shared good at prayer. it's something all of us would have gone through. so we needa keep reminding ourself never to take God's presence for granted. (: thats all, gotta get some sleep. love you Lord.

Lord, i offer my life to you,
everything i been through,
use it for your glory.

loner.

2009-04-07T19:57:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
like if there is anyone whom i know and can go out with. pls take me to the movies! lets watch fast and furious4~! hahas. i also needa gym, cause there's way too much fats on me. then, i gottta spend more time with God. i havent date Him yet. i probably would on thurs if i am going for prayer on weds. gonna have such a long day. got a test tmr, needa pass it. i wanna get a laptop soon. but all according to God's will, i have been waiting for it. might as well wait all the way. and the book jocye meyer wrote about "reduce me to love" it says desire for God, not His gifts,,and i think i needa start that going. that's all for today.

God opens door and closes one at the same time but the door He opens , is way more worth than the one He closed. this week, hopefully my friends are coming(: running in this alone alrd, but with God's hand in my hand. i need not worry anymore. He got my back covered. .

i lost every bit of my memory,

2009-04-06T19:30:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
if there is. my tagboard is kinda getting dead. but yeah, let get on with the sharing. today was so long. dont wanna complain. hahas. and extra amaths classes till like what. 4? it was long i tell you. i could hardly keep my eyes open. then luckily dad fetch me and i went to get my stuffs and home we reached! i cut my socks cause it was too sickening now waiting for my mum to find out. hahas. okays. i had time with God, and quite a number of relevations. like i was so tired, He pratically did everything for me,. i just had to obey. and then i was asking Him for early dismissal. hahs. like school but yeah.He so good, i had to spend that last 5 mins with Him, hees. when i got out, i stuff myself with food, unknowing the calories and stuff. ahhh. i pratically lost my memory, lettme think, ohhh!! praise God, my amaths passed with a distinction!ｙａｙ．　awesomeo. i gotta hit the books and tata.

i was overwhelmed with pain,
but God helped me overcome.

spiritual warfare. i guess it's time.

2009-04-05T18:30:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was BAM．　had spiritual warfare in the morning man,. i nearly broke down but because of what shujing shared yesterday, i didnt let it get to me., but things get awkward. and i am hoping everything would be fine. i was feeling all cranky and moody and didnt had any answer in my head, talked to God, wanted to cry so much, i sought for a friend, told him what happened and stuff, still cranky on the bus on the way to church, reached the youth room and starting sleeping with the music loud in my head, but then i got this thing to watch a sermon, so i started searching on my phone and i found this. "God works all things together" i think, i watched it, it was JOEL OSTEEN who preached, he was soo sooo good, what he shared, never put a ? in God's period . whatever we are going through is like, baking a cookie, situations are little ingredients God puts into the mixture to allow our life to be in plan, His plan. and He shared, even a small ingredient that is missing, like a teaspoon of baking soda, could allow the whole thing to be inedible ,that's why we are going through so much, and that made my day , it allowed me to move on with life, and say ok , Lord, if this is the baking soda part, i wanna be in this situation. so this week is going to be tough for me but i'm gonna think about my cookies (: awesomeoe.

no more ? for you , Lord,
thumbs up! you are a brilliant chef!

this saturday was that.

2009-04-05T07:43:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i blogged this morning because i reached home alittle too late then yeah, i slept. hahas. okays, saturday for me was stressing. like i was on duty alone, my pam didnt helped me, ahhhh. but i had to be independent, so i messed up alittle and yeah. but it went awesome and good.cooldos. service was good, shujing preached good, but i couldnt feel much of the presence of God, i guess because i was too busy looking at the people at the altar whether they needed tissue, it's so hard to do it., i thought it was give tissue and go. wow. hahas. i pity them. but yeah, it was cool. had a long day, something happened inbetween , felt so dumb, but it's ok. i love myself! hahas . cool, gotta get ready and going for palm sunday!{ what's that? ) hahas. toodos.

No more running wild,
i'm yours for life.
you got me here, you got me here,

good fattening

2009-04-03T19:27:00.002+08:00

hellos readers。
today was like so awesome but yet draggy, because school was so so so super slow and tiring but God's little things He does, makes my day! today school was really long, like straight away after school, i got emaths test about congruency and similarity, i cant stand making statements, bad in that. which was what? 2 hrs plus long. i was like, get me out of this room! but God was good, i had time to sleep(: hahs, and rest, before i continued on with like 45mins of maths work again, right away after the test (: exhausting, for my mind. then i finished at 3.3o! hahs. we waited for joyce to finish her work till like 4plus, we had small talks, like my friend, she cried because our school band didnt acheive what they have aimed for, yet so many hard work have been put in for such a long time, and i think so many times, we put in so much time, effort and love into something for such a long time, yet the results aint what we want, but if it's what God wants , then there must be something better later on for us (: after that we dragged till 440 and keep changing where are we heading when a person text me to go starbucks! who can resist starbucks. (: i then went starbucks, in my smelly uni. this person, is ot, hahas, he dont read my blog, so i can talk crap about him, he very funny lor, play my phone. but i wrong also la, we got our drinks then he want talk to me, i take hwk out, hahas, but hwk impt ma, so he take my phone lor, my phone brings joy to people! hahas, we played the mouse game, had some fun parts, (: it was awesome with my caramel frappe. alrd feeling fat but i gotta have them . hees. another thing to praise God, He is a God of forgiveness and a God of time and a God of opportunities. He forgave me so many times, today. i really love Him , the forgiver, not the forgiveness. i love How He plans time, today everything just fell into place. i love Him, He opens doors and shut the ones He have no plans for me to walk into. like today i was really touched, wujie auto ask if they wanna come church tmr, i was like woah, i love you , Lord!

God, thank you for standing by me all this time, in my tears, my laughter, and anger. you stayed the same always and forever, you never scold me , you just asked me qns that made me ponder, you love me so then you correct me, you stop me because you want to give me something better, who else is better than you, none. Lord, you are all i need and want.

more than just His blessings, beyond that.

2009-04-02T20:34:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was like some other day when i go to school and do my stuffs, but everyday with God, is a different kind of date. i love His surprises and His works , most importantly His presence. and i read "reduce me to love" by joyce meyer. i think it's really really good. in the bible it also says, love is the greatest. and the chapter i read,was about love which is spiritual warfare. and the things she said,was fighting a spiritual war without love is nothing, without the armor of God, is nothing, armor also includes the shoes of peace, because in every situations that Jesus went through, he was at peace. therefore we need to be at peace. another good point i got was, so many times, we seek God's blessings,and material things, but we never seek Him , His presence, and it's really time to seek for more of His presence, i believe it's way worth more than material things (: cool. today was great, PRAISE God, He made my day, really.

today, i realise so much, my father on earth is as good as my father in heaven, they both loved me, and never forget what i have requested for, i love them both! they are really awesome dads.

i want more of your presence than your presents.

awesomeo.

2009-04-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was really great. i mean, even though i was so tired, and just like wanna sleep but i went for prayer. and i guess when you invest into His kingdom, you receive harvest(: like today. i mean, i went for prayer, without expecting anything. but then what coral and shaunster shared was really good. so many times, we get past life so quickly, unknowly, we forget about it. and it's good, it has been brought up. cooldos. even though i drift away, but i come back to focus! i was trying to set my heart right and focused on Him. God was just so good. i love Him!

i want so much more of you.

cranky.

2009-03-31T15:29:00.002+08:00

hellos readers if there is.
hahas. cranky me. i shared with graceke and lydia my vision i had on sat during prayer but i was too shy to share. but i think it applies more to my cell. the vision was a picture of a running wheel, car wheel but it collected dirt and dust along the way and it had to stopped, and things like sandpaper and soap and water came to my mind, sandpaper used to scurb off the oxide from the steel (: {chemistry helps alot.} but sandpaper represent obstacles and rough patches we go through to get all the dirt out. and water and soap means healing because who doesnt get hurt on rough patches. ? the dirt and dust we collected is not our sins but it's over time we run too fast, we lost sight of the impt things, and what God wants us to do. and then the picture of a clean brand new shinning and running wheel appeared . that's the end. in the bible it also says, that we are meant to be new not old. (: gotta go spend time with the big man. (:

My awesome B-I-G Daddy GOD. !

starbucks day.

2009-03-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesome in a way,. everything was good, God helped me understand math formulae that i cant understand. it was really good. and our date was good. i read alot and thought alot. and later on went for hod meeting. and it was like.. good and contradicting myself. i mean. i have no idea what's wrong with me nowdays. i cant seem to speak properly. why? i cant do anything right. i feel so dumb la.aiya. gotta get things straight. gotta get some sleep. goodanights.

i'm lost but i know you are the only light.

2 in 1 awesome day.

2009-03-29T19:30:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i didnt blog yesterday again. yesterday was good with michelle hamilton, she was awesome, her testimony and what God did , was just amazing, God was there, we had a talk, and He spoken through sarah lin to me, and it was really good, coral prayed for me too. really good and i waited for the tissues for ages?! they need to upgrade their services, hahas. today was awesome too, i mean even if hearing the same sermon but it was good. i spend most my time with deb and graceyeo. and it was fun. deb was cranky. hahas. and i took her dad's van home and there was this moment when we stopped and then theres this guy that walked past and his hair was gorgeous, i kept staring, i didnt even know until deb told me and he was staring at me too. so embarrassing! hahas. got new plans for june hols! shop, have fun, shop. hahas.God is good, i mean for the past week i have been praying for renewal and He really renewed me and i feel so so so refreshed, and i have to keep going. i love Him !

eu te amo Lord! {in german. i love you}

lasser

2009-03-27T20:42:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
i'll be super random today. have no idea what my title would be so therefore i chose＂lasser＂hahs.
it's like last mins stuffs. today was awesome, Praise God, even though i was faced with attitude people, i didnt flare up. that's good and cca ended early but i still couldnt catch the movie with my cell. but it's cooldos. who wants to watch confessions of a shopaholic !? with me(: call me. hahs. i dont mind watching a couple of times. heees. today was just preparing the script for tmr usher meeting and i got some pretty good verses, that's awesome, but i still need God's voice, i need Him to speak to me, and hopefully He speaks soon. hees. awesomeawesome. tomorrow is exciting, i hope i can wake up to run and burn those calories. feeling fat. i feel that im slacking . now fasting days are only weds, gotta buck up. but awaits my 3day fast. hees. it's before church camp so jiao. hahas. thats good. alrightos. gotta go alrdos. (:

what else can i say about you, Lord. you are too great.

speechless brownies or cakes?

2009-03-26T18:47:00.002+08:00

hellos readers!
why didn't i blogged yesterday? because it was too awesome that i was too tired that i slept. hahs.yesterday was really good. we had a meeting with pastor tan from city harvest,. and he was just magnificent, his cd sermon about "change is necessary for growth" changed my whole qt life. thats why i got such a deep impression of him and his voice is the bomb, i like his voice. hahas. hilarious. okays. the strange thing was that 2kings4 was preached for the 3rd time, me and grace was like? so it must be impt. therefore i went to check up on it and into the bible i went. it was awesome. the common things that every miracle that elisha was doing has this "shut the door behind you" and what? do whatever you were told to do and who told ?. God. yeas. i like the whole shut the door thing, and look to God. cause all i want to do is to be in His presence, i need Him so so so much. i'm kinda on the burning out track. i need Him so much. yeah, that's yesterday. today was a good day the Lord has made. i got like three new variable, i wouldn't say relevation. but it's good. first was "Check yes juilet" song. the lyrics went like this that surprised me, "are you with me? . i wont go until you come outside." like God asking us, are we with Him, ? He will not let us pass Him by, He will stay by us, even if our hearts are closed, "i'll keep tossing rocks at your window" He will keep knocking on our heart's door, "run baby run, don't ever look back, they'll tear us apart, if you give them the chance" keep running towards Him and dont look back and try to change your decision, and allow Satan to have that chance to break the connection you have with God. "i'll be waiting, wishing, wanting" He is waiting for the day when we come back to Him and have that connection again, He wants us. "3..2..1..now fall in my arms now"He is always really to catch us when we fall. awesome right? if God is singing this song to you today, you'll know what to do (: the second one was good, it's about mac.you know people buy things to get a seat in mac to do work, hangout, if they dont they would be chased out at peak period right? but i realized, heaven is like a place, where we dont need to do things to get ourself into heaven or a place in heaven, we dont need to,and if there's peak period, tables and chairs will literally appear, thats how awesome our God is, it's like going into mac and having that specific seat yours always, no one can take that away, only you. the third one was abit personal, like i looked back at the old me and seen how much i have grown, woah, i didnt like the old me, but God did,He loved me, He too love this me, no matter which season we are in, He love us always, and the thing that kept me with Him , was love, His Love, His love was worth it, nothing was worth giving up His love. it was just this simple question "is it worth it?" kept me on running, and if you have stopped running or want to, ask yourself, is it worth it?

Lord, i should have know that you had everything in control, now i just need to believe in you, Lord lead me in the same direction as you are looking to. i wanna catch that vision and spread it and run with it.

flashbacks. i gotta see them !

2009-03-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

hellos readers
i guess i nice new skin would do good. hahas. today was awesome. refreshing, had sleep and now charged up. cooldos. today was kinda like soaking, i was just there, allowing Him to do His work, and just really look back at where i started and came from, and i realized i just couldnt remember, but i remember some impt stuffs that might just help. which was cool. PRAISE God that i managed through today without falling asleep and being grouchy. hahas. tmr theres another meeting with pastor tan and i hope to be renewed, cause i need Him so much more than i have before.

would you take my secret place, where i can only see your face. Lord.

usher into starbucks!

2009-03-23T21:53:00.003+08:00

hellos readers.
today was pretty much a sleepy day for me again. i cant seem to stay awake. today school was short, had a short meeting with pam at starbucks and my caramel frappe. deciding which shades to buy,. came home feeling and wanting to puke. today time with God is good in a way. but i can do so much better. i'm watching this japan show, and it brings this to my mind. "simple questions can bring us to complicated situations. it brings us to greater heights but it could also bring us to our lowest. " awesome huh. i think it's really true. so many times, we lost focus of what was more impt. we get too overwhelmed with life, and thats bad. hahas. gotta get some sleep before i fall asleep in class again !

Lord,　ｔｈａｎｋｓ　ｆｏｒ　ｆｏｒｇｉｖｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ａｇａｉｎ．　

sleepypeople.

2009-03-22T19:25:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was such a sleepy day, everyone in the youth room is like either dota-ing or doing work or sleeping, so bored. everything seems so slow and empty. but yeah. today was nothing much. i wasnt really feeling well. but now better. tmr have school. so ahhhh! gotta spend time with God. so gonna skip all the crap. byebye!

loudfest09

2009-03-22T00:25:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
this is so awesome,. like one of my most awesome day.it was really good. the service. the praise and worship was fantastic. audauious was so awesome. like i was literally screaming which caused me to lose my voice. wow. awesome. hahas. and pastor glenn was incredible. the message was short but good. it was just so good. even though it ended late. i didnt even had time to chew on my sweets because it was NOT boring, it was ATTRACTIVE, sosososo good. serene said i becomed a rocker during praise and worship. i admit, i let loose. (: hahas. sososoo good. i dont know what to say. okays. got some work to do. gonna stay up late again !

pump your fist, pump your fist like this!

God, how much more awesome can you be?

muffins ready, me ready, let's go!

2009-03-20T20:35:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
yesterday was a long night for me, stayed till 2.30 to finish up most of my work. and today i have e and amaths plus english to finish. hopefully i do!bought muffins and ready to go. today was good, i went to watch a movie with angel which she came late. it was "he's not just that into you" yeah. it was good, alittle mature.. hahs. angel was being aunty and bimbo. hahs. i too, who has never been to shaw , lido. cant find the counter to buy the tickets (: hahs. super dumb,. but yeah, today i felt so much better, God's healing! awesome. today had quite a time with Him, but i believe i can do so much better. gotta perserve. !okays, i just realised i need to spend time with family!, byebye. !

thankyou , Lord. your greatness really has no boundaries

sick.weak.but going on..

2009-03-19T21:23:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
awesome day but yet so tiring and weak. i agree it's SPIRITUAL WARFARE. i was spending time with God and this urge came to me and it said pray. i text gracek,lydia,angel to pray too, and this came to me, ephesians 6:18 from the message version. veryvery awesome. go check it out. it goes something like this, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. pray hard and long. keep your eyes open and keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out. isnt that cool. i think so many times we can too engaged with ourself we forget about what's going on out there, today i was so weak, i had a flu, wwasn't at my best. i could hardly breathe. felt so breatheless. felt so distanced from the people who i spent most of my time, or rather most of my time with,. i felt so tired, thought of giving up but i pushed through, i need new wine. first i gotta get new wineskin. (: ahhh. so tiring. how. i gotta stay up all night to do finish my accomplishments(:

i need you so much, Lord.

prayer + filiming.

2009-03-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.

today was awesome. came back home from school from 9-12 which i was late for, spend time with God, listened to a sermon. it was good. went for prayer. did bits of my homework. prayer was good, i was trying to be infront so that people will move too , but they did, some. hahas. and the numbers multiplied ! we had group sessions, awesomemoe. after that it just ended and ethan came in (: then fun , people start playing with him, he so hot. okays. then some filiming started for youth camp. i was in scenes of it (: joy so hilarious. it was fun, went home but was so dizzy that i cant seem to concentrate on anything. hopefully i wont get sick (: i love my health. i need it .exams in 6weeks! so fast. oks. gotta get rest. ! (: love myself.

God, my faith and my life and my everything in your hands, you take control of my plane.

3daysFASTING, 3daysADVENTURE!

2009-03-17T18:32:00.002+08:00

hellos readers!
haven't seen me in 3days? cause i was fasting, junk food, for greater things to come (: i decided not to post not because i wouldn't have anything to praise God, but i wanted more time with Him. and Praise God that these 3 days were special and exciting days , Saturday, as usual went to church, had projDmeeting and daybreak and service with pastor Adam, he was so cute, he didn't know that we ended at 7 and he just finished sharing his testimonies, but awesome. we then had cell and dinner ! cell was good, we prayed and organised more bonding time, we are going out ! we had mac for dinner, i had mcspicy which had me put on 5kg of weight, Sunday, was different, i was spending most of my time with graceyeo and debra, the atmosphere was different, didn't like it but those atmosphere were common, i do get them , but not that strong, i was kinda lost , but God was speaking alot to me, watching every move i make remembering not to make the same mistake, yeah,then went home to spend time with God(: awesome.Monday was goodda too, i had to go to school for classes at 10 - 12. after lessons, i went gyming with angeline ,chooby, lesze. it was good, i lost 4kg! yeah, more to go baby! after gyming i went home and spend time with God, and this came to me, God showed me something good. if a devil seed is planted into someone, a stronger God's fertiliser is needed to overcome it and be fruitful for God. if both a God seed and devil seed is planted into the someone, a strong God's fertiliser is needed to get rid of the devil seed, if a God seed is planted into someone, constant and daily God's fertiliser is needed for that plant to be fruitful. God's fertiliser is basically His word, Holy Spirit and Praises, encouragement,fellowship, etc. and you know what? who are the workers? US, U Sow. little things we do that touches people's heart.the fertiliser could be done by us, except Holy Spirit. we are the people, we fellowship, encourage. these are things we can do, awesome right. coolcool. (: it was just so good. God is good all the time! talking about today, i went gym again, my abs hurt. i went mng and charles and keith, i basically got my shopping list (:

SHOPPING LIST.

mng.
that DRESS. 65
that shades 35
that top 25
total : 125
cottonon.
that shorts 20
total : 20
charlesandkeith.
that shades 40
total : 20
ANYWHERE. a swimwear. budget :60
TOTAL :225 .awesome.
just thinking should i?

i love you Lord , you are the BEST !

holidays so not for me.

2009-03-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

aloha readers.
decided to do something special today. today is so the last day of school , i'm so excited, hahas. but i still have to go back to school like why? because studies never stop, have loads of homework and assignments and lots of catching up to do, aside with all that, today was extremely good, i went home with deb, had to bring all our books that we left at school back home. deb took a box, literally a box, i had to help her carry and we were laughing at how unglam we were and it was pure fun, it had the ascension atmosphere (: hahas, awesome ,God is good too, i had an awesome time with Him , today was so renewing, i didnt fall asleep (:! gotta go get some sleep and lose some mega weights tmr (:

burn those calories , baby.

still so good, why?

2009-03-12T19:48:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was just so gorgeous, i mean like school was good although so tiring that i can fall asleep, hahas, but it was good and fun, like things always happens on thurs afteroon, with the same clicks in school we will wait outside the classrooms and decide whether to go loyang point or not, and today was just so good, because wujie told me he WANTS to come for 28march, he likes the fellowship(: i mean by wanting it's alrd very awesome, there's hope. and we were just having an awesome time with all the moves and the bimbo and himbo's talk. even kinez picked up some words, so not real (: okays, talking about more awesome things, !　i am still so overwhelmed with how GREAT is our God, like, today i was just spending time with Him and i planned to watch a sermon, pray similar to a regular service, but in the middle of the sermon, i just simply can't stay awake, and then yes it happened, i slept, but you know what God still blessed with a important relevation before a fall asleep and He blessed me with a good sleep that's is all i needed so much. first He gives me something good then He used the time i have with Him to meet my needs, i didn't even get to talk to Him , i didn't even need to ask,. He is that good, and the impt relevation was from the sermon, it's about God's outstretched hand, God has hand reaching out to us, with His hands, we don't have to live life by our talents , ability and status. we just need to find that hand and that's all, our life is settled, nothing can stop God's plan. our life will go just the way God has planned and God planned our life good, fantastic, awesome, (:

i love God's hand,

in the open, not that refreshing

2009-03-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
these few days have been like busy for me, i'm like dying, sick. but i'm not dead (: the weather changes and now it's cold, people change, but God nevers, He's so awesome, like today i was just planning to break fast at 6 when it was supposed to end at 630, luckily i ended at 630, i clapped for myself on the bus, so random, hahas. today was pretty much fulfiling, like things were settled. except my amaths hwk !! ahhh, okok, don't panic, let's make things short, planning my qt is like planning to go out with my boyfriend, except He is God, we planned to do it without the door closed, we did bible study, so not private, so opened,. but it was Good. (:

i love the way He move (:

panic!

2009-03-11T05:58:00.003+08:00

hellos readers
i know it's so not updated, so here's a short and detailed one. i love my life, on monday, i had pretty much a panicky day, and time was short yet i still needed to go for a hod meeting, i was late, as usual. i cannot be late ! i must be disciplined, wow, amazing jo, speaking to yourself, because now i'm in a panicky frenzy, but impt thing, GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME, He has pretty much having fun with me, in qt and school, He's so funny, i think He's trying, He is my Daddy, number1~ tueday was nothing much, it was like school, work work work, and when i came home to do qt, it was soaking, i slept. hahas, but God wasnt angry, (:

i love Him. ahhhh, off to school i go!

back to normal but not complete good.

2009-03-08T21:16:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was smiley. it was good, i managed to complete like 1 assignment, we got too carried away with FUN, which was good, but there are still certain things that are still there. i shall not say, but let God do all the work, i believe in you, Lord. hees, nothing much to say, i'm too tired, shall share tmr, good da nights !

i love you more than i have before now, Lord

erosion happening, waterfall forming.

2009-03-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesome yet tiringg, i had to go school for CIP, so boring, like waste my time, hahas. but it was cool, later had some meeting and had to skip daybreak, because there is no time. so thank God, i reached church at 330. i wanted to sleep in youthroom but i gotta serve God in ushering. so tiring. but PRAISE GOD that i was in church, because ps mark preached a good sermon and it's all about God. i responed to altar call, cried like nobody's business and then psmark and coral came to pray for me, lydia too! then i had some time with God, He was talking serious stuffs with me and joking at the same time, making me laugh. i was smiling to myself. the rest, was just amazing, something happened, i think it was good, it was sign of HOPE. i had so much tears down my cheeks. aww. i just wondering about something, like when your eyes are so tired, and you wanna close it, yet it is painful when you try to close, but yet if you stay awake with your eyes it's ok but it will hurt even more when you attempt to close. if at that time, you just endure the pain and close you eyes , you could be more happier. {example could be used for opening eyes too ! -eyeopener(:-} awesome awesome.

i love you Lord. you are very interesting, we create interesting time okay ?

people around us. thoughts. looks and smiles.

2009-03-06T17:40:00.002+08:00

hellos readers
today was a pretty amazing and weird day for me, had school. it was good, had my ss test which i wrote the least compared to others. hahas. then was kinda forced by my best friend to go either orchard/vivo or t3. we went vivo. she is 18, she came from China, she's gorgeous, alot of guys are like pursuing or wooing her. hahas. she received alot of gifts, thats how pretty she is. she is very goofy and childish,. today we even fought for the clean seat and i won but she still took the seat. hahas. i had fun with her. she always call me mama and herself the retard child, hahas. that crazy girl. after eating at vivo and window shopping at MANGO, i know what to buy! hahas. i left for home, took bus 28. saw this hot guy, like really hot. i think he american or mixedblood. he got the body and the face, he's from sps. so cool. hahas, then i saw another one that looks like rarvin but with piercing, so disgusting. hahas. they all lived near me ! hahas, [how could i not know ?!] on the bus, i was just thinking about this blog and the content, me praising God no matter what . and i have been blessed and i was just thinking of the readers and visitors . YOU. and most non christians would think it is just pure luck, but why can't they think it's God's work. i am still pondering. someone answer my question !

skipping away off to buy my MANGO bag!

impacted. by a podcast. from God.

2009-03-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was really good. God is good all the time, all the time, He is good. Praise Him that He impacted me through podcast and the rain. Praise Him that he has blessed me with a 38/40 results, so happy. Praise Him that He never left me even though i go back on my promises. Praise Him that i'm believing for a supernatural year. the rain that impacted me was the short drizzle that i encountered. i was waiting for my bus when the skies started darkening and afraid that it might rain and i will get drenched, i told God. "please don't let it rain". God told me instead "but i wanna you to be in the rain". i fought "why? i don't want to get in the rain ! " God simply kept quiet. then it dawned on me that the rain could be stuggles in our life, God is not wanting to dampened our spirits, but to make us more on fire that any rain can't dampened us, sometimes we have to be in the rain. God's plan. let's agree with Him, and say "i will believe in you, Lord" even when i was walking back home after alighting the bus, i realized the first time when i walked in the rain, my shoes were drenched in the puddles, second time was lesser and this time hardly. do you get where i am driving you at? if we are in the rain too many times, we wont be dampened cause we are on fire alrd. it's awesome. walk with God, in our shoes. (:
the podcast was by joel osteen, on believing for a supernatural year. he is really awesome. some verses that can be used. genesis 18:14 i really like this, "is there anything too hard for God ?" acts 2:26 "pitch your tent in the land of Hope" these two are really awesome. we always need to have faith. not great faith but faith in a great God. and knowing where to pitch our "tents" . ihave been impacted, i hope you have, have a nice day (: good night.

puddles puddles., i jump into them like a kid.

i love the way He works

2009-03-04T20:02:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
again another exciting day ! today was super good, things were extremely better. we are now on talking terms, like friends again. Praise God that even though i failed my geo test but yet the teacher is giving a passing mark first then must take retest . but still Praise Him, He also blessed me with an awesome day. it was filled with excitement and joy (: i had my chem supplementary and cca, then went with joyce and debra to loyang point, we met up with wujie, jeric, junyi, kinez, lester, fathin, sally and shafna. we had fun, until kinez and lester turned horny and make fun of shafna, she left, we played truth and dare. it was fun and all. finished our homework and left the place, something personal happened in between and then we were talking about the march hols, and we planned to go SENTOSA to tan and have fun, it will be super cool ,i can shop for swimwear and shop with guys and ladies. awesome,. praise praise God,. and i just saw this sentence which i think is really true, we don't need great faith, we need to have faith in our great God.

i love the way He work

HOPEHOPE, i 100% see it !

2009-03-03T15:55:00.004+08:00

hellos readers.
i am so excited about today . loads of things to praise God. i don't know where to start. let's start from the start ! school was good , there was communication between us, she laughed when i joked and smiled when i gave her sweet. and PRAISE God that my Amaths test passed ! hahas. and Physics test was postphoned . God is good all the time, i reach home and bath, and i found the CORE5 CLIP ! i screamed HOPEHOPEHOPE. ahhhhhs. i think God takes things from us now and will let us find it later in life, so lets not lose HOPE. hahas. i am so HAPPY. i am confident enough to believe that whatever God is doing now is for the best of us. SO don't lose HOPE !

hahas, Satan, are u scared ?

awesome sui moi.

2009-03-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesomely mui soi. hahas. have no idea what am i talking about. it was good. as in everything went the way God wanted i think because i was worrying about the ca emath test that i was going to take yet i kept telling myself i have God. whom shall i fear ? hahas. then the test went well that i was confident to score full marks, hahas, wait for my testimonies ! then during the test i was doing the qns yet thinking what to eat when i get to tm . then my teacher gave us each a bar of toberlone{is that how you spell it ?} ! hahas. God is good all the time and He blesses us in every way, ur stomach , your eyes {academics results} hahas. i love you Lord ! you are like unreplaceable, (: today we had HOD meeting too, supposedly at bedok simpang but it rain so it ended in youth room and then went for simpang to eat ! i was lost at what to eat because i have never been there, but i ordered roti prata egg [1] hahas. they say i underweight ==. i'm super fat i wanna lose weight. hees. don't have the time. busyness is driving me towards ? but thank God that i was able to reach in time and Mum kept mushroom soup for me ! so sweet. hahas. Praise God for the day He made !

you are my Daddy today tomorrow and yesterday.

swinging away., don't get too lost.

2009-03-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.

today was awesomely good as in even though things wasnt good but then there was kinda a slight hope,. it better have ! hahas, this photo wasnt taken today but 2weeks ago kinda thing. and it just drop on me that life is just like being in a swing, when u are up people are down or vice versa. and sometimes we have to be back where we started because we lost track of why we are on this journey and become too busy and over with things around us that we lost track. and when me and kris was on the swing, angel , germ and fion was throwing water bomb at us and kris took the front and i took the back, we look out for each other and shortened the possiblity of getting hurt. waterbombs are like spiritual or physical attacks, from Satan, but but God is everything, He is holy, righteous , faithful till the end, healer, redeemer and friend,. so who cares about the waterbombs, focus so so so SO MUCH on Him. and only Him. dun cheat Him , in james 4:5 it says, "And do you suppose God doesnt care? the proverb has it that he's a fiercely jealous lover" so be so true to Him. be strong and always trust Him ,His ways are higher than ours. leave it all to Him.

DaddyGod, this is all i have and i'm giving you all !

family movie night. 28feb09

2009-02-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.
today we had family movie night ! yeah. awesome . mine was with my sis. but it was good because she's in metamorphis this year, and it's a good time for her to get used to being in service, and this movie night was special because there were parents and grandparents and some who got saved！　it was really cool and what pastor mark shared was really good, how i hoped my parents were there to listen but there will be more times of this ! today was super slackish. like usher wasnt usher and tag team wasnt tag team. today was good ! i came home early because my dad fetch and i wanted to have dinner with them ! awesomeawesome. tomorrow is going to be a long day man, i gotta study ! cause i have ca tests. bless me o Lord. !

i love you dear Lord, save me from all those dramas. i don't wanna be a drama queen.

hope. i see it !

2009-02-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesome.even though it was a long day after all the extended timetables and knowing that next week is almost filled with CA tests , and a chinese play that we had to go to watch that ends at 6plus. today was tiring. fell asleep a couple of times. i gotta have sleep ! hahas. but today was good. even though things has been stale between us. you wave goodbye which shows me hope. God is just opening doors, and hope that i can see and feel. it's awesome. today seems to have many things to accomplish but i don't have the time. and i'm falling asleep. (:

God, i'm longing for you. i'm coming back to our first love.

rainy days

2009-02-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.

today is a 2 in 1 post. yesterday i was too tired, i didnt forget. but i was too tired. came home at about 11plus and dive into my bed. talking about the present first. ! today was awesome man. even though it is raining but it was good. i'm going to study later which is pretty amazing. hahas. i just realized that i am carrying actually alot of responsiblites . my mum made me realized that. and i was like woah. but i still have to carry them. endure! today is kinda weird, cause, i studied with sally, joyce and aaron. weird grp. hahas. but we really studied (: awesome.lets talk about yesterday!yesterday was so so so awesome ! i had such a great time with God. it was not much about the time spent nor the things done but just the presence that makes me feel charged up. i felt new and different ! yesterday i had a revelation in a bus. my revelations are always with bus. okays. the revelation was about christian. if the christian walk with God is like on a bus. leaders would be passengers on the seats but often they give up their seats to get out of their comfort zone for their sheeps or others for them to get into their comfort zone. and if leaders who get off their seats, means they are taking risks, unless they cling onto the handle or else they fall. which means backslide. and those who alights are those who back with God. it's so cool. i'm not really blown by it but just , weighing onto my heart, i still trying to figure what he trying to speak to me about. i think it's not done with. but it was good.
DaddyGod , i love you. no matter what, my life is yours forever.

Satan, you can forget about trying to scare me with small matters that people exaggrate about it, it doesn't work on me .

hyperhappy am i supposed to be?

2009-02-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.
today's title is random. i'm so tight up with my schedule this week. but i don't wanna forget who i'm living for, DaddyGod. i just came back from lydia's celebration. i was waiting for my bus and for the very first time, i didn't want to rush, i just stoned, and God was speaking to me and i was asking for certain things. somehow, i don't know how, time is passing so slowly yet fast at the same time. you know that feeling? it's so weird. but life goes on, and i'm deciding to move on or nots, things are happening but i'm not affected much, praise the Lord, He strengthens me for this, i'm glad i went through all those in the past to get to here, i hope they will too.continue to run with me on this race ..

renew me once more, Lord. {i'm desperate for your touch, never needed it so much}

no time to sleep, endurness

2009-02-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.

today was a sleep day for me, i was trying to keep still and awake, but i cant seem to stop jumping, hahas. i nearly fall asleep but luckily i have mad hyper friends around me to keep me awake and going. i praise God that today nothing tough came my way because i'm in the "i don't want to do anything" mood. i praise God that He always forgives me even though i fall asleep infront of Him, i love praise and worship, especially praise !i praise God that i survived two maths test in a row, emath and amath. gotta plan a life. nopes, i think i should sleep. so so so tired, and i think i'm falling sick . hopefully yes, and no. yes because i wanna get away from school and no because i would'nt be able to evangelize . hahas. but i seldom gets sick, cause i'm healthy, praise the Lord. ! hahas. off i go to sleep (:

DaddyGod, you ' re just that awesome. forgiving and loving. i wanna be like you !

Satan, you don't have to work OT , nothing will help you succed .

bonds

2009-02-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.
today was awesome. woke up kinda late, had to be there for usher so took a cab. today was one of the days when i go, i don't know what to wear, i can't bother anymore, too tired to think. too busy for other stuffs. i'm so sloppy today. hahas. today was a cell bonding day, had lunch with kris, singdee, mikey ! hahas. then did hwk, my brains were not thinking . had to stop and bonded with kris and graceke ,we were like all around the place, they drew eyes on my knee "mama mia" hahas. i tatoo "i love YC" on grace's back, hahs. kris was like blowing hot air on us. was all over the place. the boys in the youth room was like lan shop . play dota. hahas, today was blurry but good. things are happening, i can feel it, and God is acting like a spoilt kid, asking me spend time with Him. off i go. here i come !

i'll hand it all onto your hands, Lord.

no point trying, Satan. you would succeed.

i serve a God who is faithful and true (:

2009-02-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

[we may not be clean , but God loves us]

hellos readers.
i'm numb to my surroundings and lost,but i praise God for today, i praise Him that even with 5 people we started cell service and we had fun , and we were praising Him on the balcony and everyone could see us , and we were opened and closer to God, it was awesome. I love you Lord. today was a different sat. i woke up in angel's house. and we had supper at like in the early morning. so awesome. i experienced something new. we were happy, there wasn't a single negative feel. we watched tv till we fall asleep and i slept on the floor because they were so squeezed up. hahas. yesterday was new. even yesterday was new, today has to be the future. at this moment of time i just want to be on Daddy God's lap by the fireplace on the big red chair, and emptying my bottle. cuddled up and not lost nor cold because i'm home. {Daddy, can i meet you now or tomorrow?, i just wanna be in ur presence} i'm calling ..

Satan , you lost today even though you tried to destroy it in the week, u LOST. i'm always the winner!

enduring

2009-02-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

I LOVE ANGEL.

hellos readers !
i'm at angel's house. doing amaths. gonna talk about today but so exhausted after such a long week but i'm gonna give a overall report. it was sososososososoososososo AWESOME, God is Good all the time. today was in church and having talk with lydia and graceke , this week tells me how much i have to endure in this race, and we know it's time to pray! today had Crash09, im so excited even though i CANT go, i WANT to ! i was so excited i wanted to break into the hall. it's kinda amazing how tired i am even when it's only 10plus and it's like the walk with God, we get tired when it's not time yet. but we have to keep on going because God's timing is correct. we gotta be patient. God's ways are higher than ours. i really want to keep on going and i know i can and i havent reach my limit, and i want my sisters to be with me on this race.

off jumping for joy and praising Him

Praise him, More struggles to strengthen me!

2009-02-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

hellos readers.
today life is quite interesting, psst, it's driving me nuts, i want to change the world, i just wanna be out there where Jesus is, but i'm not ready, thats why struggles in our life are there for. hahas. learnt something new?，phil pringle preached about committment and he says struggles are there to prepare us for the real world and committment is not committment until you reach the end. do you hear me ?, committment is not committment until you reach the end. joyce meyer gave an example in her sermon "eat the cookie buy the shoe" about caterpillars and butterflies. you know when a caterpillar is in the coccon and is in the process of changing into a butterfly and before it can , it has to struggle out before it can step into the real world. and if the caterpillar gets help ,it won't be able to develop properly and cant be a real butterfly and face the world. it's applies to us too. Yeah, enough of examples. today, was awesome even with the issues we are having. i think Satan is nowhere near me but he is targetting the loved ones around me and my surroundings have become cold and negative. but i'm believing God, trusting and have faith in Him . i praise Him that i'm not along in this race, i have runners beside me, and i know in trouble times, He is there always.

"DaddyGod, give me love, peace and joy and forgiveness, i want to be more like you"

"You cant stop me from praising His name, Satan."

i'm excited for more!

2009-02-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

hellos readers,
i forgetten to post yesterday, but yesterday was so awesome but i'm gonna post about the present first. Today was so awesome. i guess the Satan is scared off and has gone into hiding, so i'm having a good day , i praise God for my geography test that i pass ! i praise God that my cca got cancelled and i could go for PRAYER.! Prayer was awesome even though the congregation is like what, 6 person plus 5 person for the band. plus sound and shaunster. but i felt at home. i praise God that i'm loving forgiving people. i hope they do likewise. Words are powerful, we have to use it positively. and we cant praise and curse with the same mouth we praise God. i praise God that even between friends we are having conflicts, i know God's ways are always higher than our ways. Today we ask the "boss" which is lydia whether we can have OVERNIGHT PRAYER, and i was just visualising when we are praying in angel's house and her brothers, her parents, her ahma joins us for prayer because we were too loud and they had to wake up. so awesome. ! today was GOOD.

yesterday, was better than monday. Satan is nowhere to be found and that's good.So Praise God ! i had an awesome date with him just spending time together. start believing, hoping and dreaming for more of the impossible that our God do. you'll be blown i tell you. (:

thats all for these two days. i believe God is doing an amazing job.

"just wait and see, Satan !"